JoseF’s recommended reading for JMac: John Steinbeck, Upton Sinclair, Carl Sandburg. Dis list havin been compiled wid my help in response to JMac’s latest written submission. He seems to have gone completely fictional on us.
Wait a second! Was dat JMac’s intake or Spark’s? Maro! Can you help me out here?
Spark feels dat he cannot make himself understood. Da’s what de’xpression on his face is tellin everybody. He is tryin to say, “I am not just a jock.” He is sayin dis quite slowly, but somehow dey all missin it. I s’pose cuz i’s completely outta context here, given de situation. Distinctly. I can hear him sayin dis quite distinctly. His eyes are closed. De whole room has gone silent. He is sayin, “I cannot make myself understood, now.” He is speakin slowly an distinctly, but no one is understandin at all, cept for me, dat is. “I am not just a boy who skateboards. I have an intricate history. Experiences and feelings. I’m complex.” He opens his eyes and says, “Please don’t think I don’t care.”
As Spark is lookin out and attemptin to rise from his chair, I can see d’horror expressed on de faces of everyone else in de room. I see jowls saggin, eyebrows spiked into thoroughly wrinkled foreheads, cheeks flushed and somehow sucked in. Suddenly the door opens and in walks a bunch o’people in white coats. Someone has pressed’panic button. At d’head o’dem all comes Kretschmar. She is a woman who looks to be about forty years of age, wid pleasant but very penetrating eyes and a polite manner. Dis entirely new entourage is poised to show Spark attention an respect, until dey see d’expression on his face.
“I’m fine,” Spark tries to tell dem, standing.
Yes, i’s quite obvious dat Kretschmar is in charge here, now.
“Please don’t worry,” Spark is saying. “I can explain.”
He is tryin to soothe d’air wid what he believes is a casual hand. But before he knows it, both of his arms are pinioned from behind, and he is wrestled roughly down to de floor.
Durin dis time, Kretschmar has seated herself upon a nearby stool. A man from her team also seats himself upon a stool, introduces himself to Spark as Doctor Stravinsky, all the while continuing to smile amiably at him.
Dey must have put together d’whole case already.
“Nothing is wrong,” Spark is continuing to attempt communication wid’ese people. His forehead is pressed into de floor. He has definitely been arrested. He is tryin to be perceived as limp an pliable. His face is mashed flat; dis makin it hard for him to breath, so dat his words come out even more mangled.
“Try to listen,” Spark says very slowly into de floor.
All de while maintainin his amiable smile, Dr. Stravinsky turns to Kretschmar an says, “WHAT are those... those SOUNDS?”
Spark is now raised up by his underarms, all de while sayin, “I am not what you see and hear.”
Spark is now encircled by a crude half nelson.
“I’m not,” Spark says. The disorder he has somehow caused revolves around him. He is half-dragged, still pinioned, through a loose mob of Administrative people. Spark is brought to Room 117, a cell situated in an otherwise cement corridor. It had formerly served as a sick-room for several patients. It has a high ceiling and gives d’impression o’bein spacious, dat is, until one spends all of one’s time in der. Spark is rolled over, until he is supine on de room’s biodegradable linoleum tile. Here one word makes him shudder (I can see his response), and dat is de word ‘schizophrenia’. De weary doctors look at him and discuss his condition listlessly, “Speech and motor excitation... delirious episodes... clearly a complicated case... Schizophrenia, one must assume. And alcoholism too... The boy needs care... here to enroll, compete...”
***
Oh, right. How could I get dem’ixed-up like dat? Didn’t’hey have completely different admissions? Right. Dey came in on de same night. Da’s why.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Der be peeps fillin in. I’m tryin to find a place to sit myself, and also remember dem all from der profiles. In da peanut gallery we got de Cock (who looks like he fallin asleep, maybe he’d be a good one to sit beside), and a bunch of other student reps. We also gotta couple o’staff members who bin sucked into takin notes.
Megan B. has been a Drug and Alcohol Counsellor at G. House since graduation.
Ted R. works in private practice and has also worked as a consultant to MSB-Health Canada -- Medical Services Branch, Ministry of Health and Social Services, P.W.A. Society, Workers Compensation Board.
Louisa G. is a counsellor at the Police Department under the Canadian Association of Sexual Assault Centres.
“He has nothing to hide. What you see is what you get with him.”
“Sherri is, yes.”
“Well, she did, but I think they dissolved that. She’s very talented, very smart.”
“It’s intimate.”
“Special seats for special people.”
“Even better.”
“It was a department lunch.”
“A lawyer, law firm event.”
“Yeah.”
“What are you doing?”
“I was seating you.”
“You were trying to seat me but you blocked me.”
“I suggest you leave it to that...”
“Oh, was it?”
“Just one night.”
“Not by us.”
“We need somebody to wack’im.”
“Can I put this beside you there?”
[Rebecca Neumann -guest of the evening lookin very beautiful sittin off in the corner by herself.]
“Momentarily... one day and then alluva sudden it’s gone.”
“No, it’s like that.”
[or maybe that isn’t her at all?]
“D’you know what?...”
[I don’t think she would wear jeans. She’s d’one wearin d’huge gold pendant.]
“Doing it justice... big identity crisis.”
“Oh yeah. Yeah, ate there last night. I don’t do restaurants. Don’t go to fancy restaurants.”
[I’s gettin loud. Too many conversations to keep track of. But she IS wearin jeans.]
“Please sit here. Please do. I’ve been fighting people off. They try to sit here and I say, ‘No! Goddammit!’”
“Because you said you would try. It’s a good thing I wasn’t looking for you then.”
[Da’s Kretschmar. I’d know dat crotchety voice anywhere.]
“So there’s going to be a good crowd here. And there’s going to be people who wouldn’t normally come.”
“Wanted! If you see this woman, we want her liver!”
[She’s not wearin jeans. Da’s a look-alike wid buns.]
“Socratic notions of what it means to be an educated person...”
[President has now taken de stage.]
“... Scholarship... If you haven’t received the directions for the reception afterwards... history, place and memory... nationally and internationally...”
[Rebecca Neumann, in turn, introduces her sidekick. She IS wearin jeans.]
“I shall speak neither as an artist nor as an art critic; I shall not even speak of the artistic phenomena with which I come into contact... as a psychologist... the more or less artistic productions which arise in the course of analytical therapy. Our present inquiry lies within the psychology of culture; it aims at an understanding of art as a psychological phenomenon of central importance to the collectivity as well as the individual. We shall start from the creative function of the unconscious, which produces its forms spontaneously...”
[Reminds me of some o’my own writin. I wish I could remember my dreams a bit better.]
“Because this substratum and background of the psychophysical world is forever bringing forth forms, we call it creative... So, that is the video component of... ”
[I still remember de night dey brought K Jan in.
It was getting light outside. The streetlights along the tunnel were casting a glow that was both unnecessary and unpleasant. The driver was angry that the night had been wasted, and he drove the van so hard that it skidded on turns. As they neared Townsend, the surrounding forest fell away and the river disappeared to the side. A highly varied panorama came out to meet the van: fences with sentry boxes, stacks of wood, and of course, the Towers.
I could see that K Jan was having a bumpy ride. The recycled, fake, plastic stump he was seated on in the back of the van kept trying to slide out from underneath him (even though it was bolted to the floor), despite the fact that he ass was safety-belted to it. Attendants don’t really care about this sort of thing.
It’s obvious that his visit to Townsend will have a most oppressive effect on him. I am trying to understand what is tormenting K Jan so. If this is how he takes the ride in, then how will he handle the corridor with the blue lights? Perhaps it’s the thought that there is nothing worse in the world than losing one’s mind. Does K Jan believe that he has lost his mind? Yes, yes, of course there is that. Perhaps it is the insult. Yes, that’s more like it. It’s the insult to his person that bothers him so. We have injured his notion of autonomy. He no longer knows what is in his own best interest. We are here to tell him. Staring at the dirty, rattling floor of the van, he begins to mutter and whine, gnawing away at his restraints. K Jan lurches forward as the floor beneath him stops shaking. He raises his head and sees that he has long since arrived. Now K Jan raises his fist and shouts, “What did I do?!! I don’t get it!!!! I’m unlucky! That’s all!” K Jan concludes with sudden venom as Kretschmar and the attendants step into the back of the van. They've arrived. He looks into Kretschmar’s face and sees that she is completely indifferent to his fate. She does not even feel sorry for him. Day was beginning to bear down upon him with full force.
“Bandits!” he shouts, becoming hoarse, trying to bite anyone he can grab. K Jan screams, “So those are the kind of windows you have here! Let me go! Let me go!”
They have carried him kicking and screaming out of the van. A hypodermic syringe flashes in Kretschmar’s hands, and in a single motion the woman has ripped open one of K Jan’s bedraggled sleeves. There is the smell of ether. K Jan goes weak in the arms of four attendants. An agile Dr. Kretschmar takes advantage of this moment to plunge her needle into K Jan’s arm. They hold on to K Jan for a few seconds longer before lowering him on to a couch in the nearest rubber room.
“Bandits!” K Jan shouts again as he jumps up from the couch. Just as quickly he was deposited back down on to it by four pairs of heavy arms. As soon as they let go of him, he was about to jump up again, but this time he sits back down himself. He falls silent for a moment, looking around wildly, then yawns suddenly, and grins maliciously.
“So they’ve locked me up after all,” he says, yawns again, and lays down. He puts his head on the pillow and his fist under his cheek like a child. In a sleepy voice, free of his former malice, he mumbles, “Well, and very good too... You’ll pay for what you’ve done. I warned you, so now do as you wish!... Right now what interests me most is...”
“A bath, Room 117- private - and post a guard,” orders Kretschmar while putting on her glasses.
Stress and the Development of Aggressive Behaviour
Studies testing the role and effect of environmental factors (such as social stress) on the devolopment and neurobiology of aggressive behaviour.]
“Um in a different manner than it was... projected on to water... basically impossible to document... It’s interesting to me... strange magic in that... projected on to water itself... to somehow... take an aggressive performance... although it would be exceedingly interesting to show, for example, how the archetypal world of Egypt was shaped by a static conception of eternity and time... mist on your skin... very powerful presence... strength... visceral live action... Art is at this stage of a collective phenomenon, which cannot be isolated from the context of collective existence but is integrated with the life of the group... also the works of other... and I think that it’s the strength of my work... Well, is there life after... Aughhh, you guys are so into art... fountains originated in that part of the world... of political significance to me...”
“… We thought… she was making… work… we wanted… a strong emotional impact… intense, political message…”
“It’s my role to articulate and speak about…”
“It’s kinda like a privilege…”
“Um… just to refresh my memory as to how insane that experience was… I had no idea what to expect… so intense… Before I was… I remember… it’s my most personal way of communicating through artistic expression… my identity… aboriginal female body in this place at this time… could be in the middle of nowhere… a way of really examining… just there to witness…”
“... garden? Back to the garden?”
[She has so much courage.]
“… As they fade into the distance… I think at the same time to look at the work… I like to keep it simple… I like to work outside. I like to wash things… and have them feel comfortable… I think that’s how… y’know we all watch movies… I’ve done many, many… and people remind me of what I did… in the body… communicating to other people in their bodies… I created this… while in residence… I chose to work… an abandoned concrete base I thought that was a good site to work… president of the university was having some kinda do… Anishnabe… and yes I do have a very specific… we all have our own histories, our own concerns… to go from being… Am I Anishnabe first? Are we all equal? Or am I just lucky?... There’s this whole… how you want to be with it… confusing… we have to do our work… I see myself… This is all I know how to do now… And sometimes I think society doesn’t want to see that…”
[I wonder where she got that drumstick from. Quite de sidekick she has der. I doubt Maro would ever do anything like dat for me, eh man?]
“… the backdrop that you see… beautiful flowers… It was huge… That day… I had to shift gears… It took about an hour and a half… I think that’s all… tonight… have a conversation… No, they wouldn’t allow me to do that…”
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- floor o’scholars an research, etc.
- exhibits essential features of steriotypy/habit disorder: intentional repetitive, nonfunctional behaviours (body-rocking, hair-pulling); noncommunicative, repetitive vocalizations performed in a certain rhythm/pattern
-exhibits spontaneous muscle twitching, hands assume position of main d’accoucheur, feet are extended with toes flexed, laryngeal spasms with convulsions
Chap got in de room somehow. I’m gonna hafta kick dat guy’s ass now. So much for de reception.]
“… I think… it made sense… the idea of a naked female body… is very disturbing… shining through the net that held the roses… a seediness, a weirdness to vehicles. They’re like another presence… There can only be one queen bee… Yet you’re documenting… something to be viewed separately… versus seeing in a video format… I think that I’m trying to examine myself… It’s there and then it’s gone… But it’s not the same… I think to try and maybe answer your question… Ok… I’m going to do my thing… And I’m going to try to give it the quality that… the water became the performer… It’s the water that’s moving… So that’s… But I think… I never paid attention to documentation… myth and rumour… I think that’s what I had… mostly… I’ve shifted to now paying more attention to documentation. I think that for me… light bulbs in the screen… good documentation… he was the documentor… He really captured the piece very well… That’s how I started to think… people who weren’t there… that piece is a video where I’m not in the piece… maybe that’s the way I’m heading.”
“Blood?”
“Uh, that’s a good question. I like what you said bout the idea of washing away… It’s the idea of applying blood… turning water into blood and blood into water… being alive… We need water, but water doesn’t need us… the colour white… something for me to think about. Thankyou.”
“Body?”
“… went to art school… found myself using my physical self… I fell into it naturally just through the nature of my personality… the vehicle of the body…”
“… materials talk to you?”
“Yeah, uh… You’ll see sculptural works or installation works… I have a tendency to keep things pretty clean… sculptures or objects that are much more pared down… less messy… harness the material in some way… red cedar log… looks beautiful to me… y’know if you make it too beautiful then it sucks… I want to say something about how we are as human beings… have some purpose…”
“…Images where you’re constrained… always fighting something?”
“I think it’s a human condition… restraining myself… people will feel the struggle… I like that, setting up a difficult situation for myself… that’s just why I need to do it in front of people…”
[She’s fuckin awesome!]
Megan B. has been a Drug and Alcohol Counsellor at G. House since graduation.
Ted R. works in private practice and has also worked as a consultant to MSB-Health Canada -- Medical Services Branch, Ministry of Health and Social Services, P.W.A. Society, Workers Compensation Board.
Louisa G. is a counsellor at the Police Department under the Canadian Association of Sexual Assault Centres.
“He has nothing to hide. What you see is what you get with him.”
“Sherri is, yes.”
“Well, she did, but I think they dissolved that. She’s very talented, very smart.”
“It’s intimate.”
“Special seats for special people.”
“Even better.”
“It was a department lunch.”
“A lawyer, law firm event.”
“Yeah.”
“What are you doing?”
“I was seating you.”
“You were trying to seat me but you blocked me.”
“I suggest you leave it to that...”
“Oh, was it?”
“Just one night.”
“Not by us.”
“We need somebody to wack’im.”
“Can I put this beside you there?”
[Rebecca Neumann -guest of the evening lookin very beautiful sittin off in the corner by herself.]
“Momentarily... one day and then alluva sudden it’s gone.”
“No, it’s like that.”
[or maybe that isn’t her at all?]
“D’you know what?...”
[I don’t think she would wear jeans. She’s d’one wearin d’huge gold pendant.]
“Doing it justice... big identity crisis.”
“Oh yeah. Yeah, ate there last night. I don’t do restaurants. Don’t go to fancy restaurants.”
[I’s gettin loud. Too many conversations to keep track of. But she IS wearin jeans.]
“Please sit here. Please do. I’ve been fighting people off. They try to sit here and I say, ‘No! Goddammit!’”
“Because you said you would try. It’s a good thing I wasn’t looking for you then.”
[Da’s Kretschmar. I’d know dat crotchety voice anywhere.]
“So there’s going to be a good crowd here. And there’s going to be people who wouldn’t normally come.”
“Wanted! If you see this woman, we want her liver!”
[She’s not wearin jeans. Da’s a look-alike wid buns.]
“Socratic notions of what it means to be an educated person...”
[President has now taken de stage.]
“... Scholarship... If you haven’t received the directions for the reception afterwards... history, place and memory... nationally and internationally...”
[Rebecca Neumann, in turn, introduces her sidekick. She IS wearin jeans.]
“I shall speak neither as an artist nor as an art critic; I shall not even speak of the artistic phenomena with which I come into contact... as a psychologist... the more or less artistic productions which arise in the course of analytical therapy. Our present inquiry lies within the psychology of culture; it aims at an understanding of art as a psychological phenomenon of central importance to the collectivity as well as the individual. We shall start from the creative function of the unconscious, which produces its forms spontaneously...”
[Reminds me of some o’my own writin. I wish I could remember my dreams a bit better.]
“Because this substratum and background of the psychophysical world is forever bringing forth forms, we call it creative... So, that is the video component of... ”
[I still remember de night dey brought K Jan in.
It was getting light outside. The streetlights along the tunnel were casting a glow that was both unnecessary and unpleasant. The driver was angry that the night had been wasted, and he drove the van so hard that it skidded on turns. As they neared Townsend, the surrounding forest fell away and the river disappeared to the side. A highly varied panorama came out to meet the van: fences with sentry boxes, stacks of wood, and of course, the Towers.
I could see that K Jan was having a bumpy ride. The recycled, fake, plastic stump he was seated on in the back of the van kept trying to slide out from underneath him (even though it was bolted to the floor), despite the fact that he ass was safety-belted to it. Attendants don’t really care about this sort of thing.
It’s obvious that his visit to Townsend will have a most oppressive effect on him. I am trying to understand what is tormenting K Jan so. If this is how he takes the ride in, then how will he handle the corridor with the blue lights? Perhaps it’s the thought that there is nothing worse in the world than losing one’s mind. Does K Jan believe that he has lost his mind? Yes, yes, of course there is that. Perhaps it is the insult. Yes, that’s more like it. It’s the insult to his person that bothers him so. We have injured his notion of autonomy. He no longer knows what is in his own best interest. We are here to tell him. Staring at the dirty, rattling floor of the van, he begins to mutter and whine, gnawing away at his restraints. K Jan lurches forward as the floor beneath him stops shaking. He raises his head and sees that he has long since arrived. Now K Jan raises his fist and shouts, “What did I do?!! I don’t get it!!!! I’m unlucky! That’s all!” K Jan concludes with sudden venom as Kretschmar and the attendants step into the back of the van. They've arrived. He looks into Kretschmar’s face and sees that she is completely indifferent to his fate. She does not even feel sorry for him. Day was beginning to bear down upon him with full force.
“Bandits!” he shouts, becoming hoarse, trying to bite anyone he can grab. K Jan screams, “So those are the kind of windows you have here! Let me go! Let me go!”
They have carried him kicking and screaming out of the van. A hypodermic syringe flashes in Kretschmar’s hands, and in a single motion the woman has ripped open one of K Jan’s bedraggled sleeves. There is the smell of ether. K Jan goes weak in the arms of four attendants. An agile Dr. Kretschmar takes advantage of this moment to plunge her needle into K Jan’s arm. They hold on to K Jan for a few seconds longer before lowering him on to a couch in the nearest rubber room.
“Bandits!” K Jan shouts again as he jumps up from the couch. Just as quickly he was deposited back down on to it by four pairs of heavy arms. As soon as they let go of him, he was about to jump up again, but this time he sits back down himself. He falls silent for a moment, looking around wildly, then yawns suddenly, and grins maliciously.
“So they’ve locked me up after all,” he says, yawns again, and lays down. He puts his head on the pillow and his fist under his cheek like a child. In a sleepy voice, free of his former malice, he mumbles, “Well, and very good too... You’ll pay for what you’ve done. I warned you, so now do as you wish!... Right now what interests me most is...”
“A bath, Room 117- private - and post a guard,” orders Kretschmar while putting on her glasses.
Stress and the Development of Aggressive Behaviour
Studies testing the role and effect of environmental factors (such as social stress) on the devolopment and neurobiology of aggressive behaviour.]
“Um in a different manner than it was... projected on to water... basically impossible to document... It’s interesting to me... strange magic in that... projected on to water itself... to somehow... take an aggressive performance... although it would be exceedingly interesting to show, for example, how the archetypal world of Egypt was shaped by a static conception of eternity and time... mist on your skin... very powerful presence... strength... visceral live action... Art is at this stage of a collective phenomenon, which cannot be isolated from the context of collective existence but is integrated with the life of the group... also the works of other... and I think that it’s the strength of my work... Well, is there life after... Aughhh, you guys are so into art... fountains originated in that part of the world... of political significance to me...”
“… We thought… she was making… work… we wanted… a strong emotional impact… intense, political message…”
“It’s my role to articulate and speak about…”
“It’s kinda like a privilege…”
“Um… just to refresh my memory as to how insane that experience was… I had no idea what to expect… so intense… Before I was… I remember… it’s my most personal way of communicating through artistic expression… my identity… aboriginal female body in this place at this time… could be in the middle of nowhere… a way of really examining… just there to witness…”
“... garden? Back to the garden?”
[She has so much courage.]
“… As they fade into the distance… I think at the same time to look at the work… I like to keep it simple… I like to work outside. I like to wash things… and have them feel comfortable… I think that’s how… y’know we all watch movies… I’ve done many, many… and people remind me of what I did… in the body… communicating to other people in their bodies… I created this… while in residence… I chose to work… an abandoned concrete base I thought that was a good site to work… president of the university was having some kinda do… Anishnabe… and yes I do have a very specific… we all have our own histories, our own concerns… to go from being… Am I Anishnabe first? Are we all equal? Or am I just lucky?... There’s this whole… how you want to be with it… confusing… we have to do our work… I see myself… This is all I know how to do now… And sometimes I think society doesn’t want to see that…”
[I wonder where she got that drumstick from. Quite de sidekick she has der. I doubt Maro would ever do anything like dat for me, eh man?]
“… the backdrop that you see… beautiful flowers… It was huge… That day… I had to shift gears… It took about an hour and a half… I think that’s all… tonight… have a conversation… No, they wouldn’t allow me to do that…”
[HEY! (without sponsor) #20033007
- floor o’scholars an research, etc.
- exhibits essential features of steriotypy/habit disorder: intentional repetitive, nonfunctional behaviours (body-rocking, hair-pulling); noncommunicative, repetitive vocalizations performed in a certain rhythm/pattern
-exhibits spontaneous muscle twitching, hands assume position of main d’accoucheur, feet are extended with toes flexed, laryngeal spasms with convulsions
Chap got in de room somehow. I’m gonna hafta kick dat guy’s ass now. So much for de reception.]
“… I think… it made sense… the idea of a naked female body… is very disturbing… shining through the net that held the roses… a seediness, a weirdness to vehicles. They’re like another presence… There can only be one queen bee… Yet you’re documenting… something to be viewed separately… versus seeing in a video format… I think that I’m trying to examine myself… It’s there and then it’s gone… But it’s not the same… I think to try and maybe answer your question… Ok… I’m going to do my thing… And I’m going to try to give it the quality that… the water became the performer… It’s the water that’s moving… So that’s… But I think… I never paid attention to documentation… myth and rumour… I think that’s what I had… mostly… I’ve shifted to now paying more attention to documentation. I think that for me… light bulbs in the screen… good documentation… he was the documentor… He really captured the piece very well… That’s how I started to think… people who weren’t there… that piece is a video where I’m not in the piece… maybe that’s the way I’m heading.”
“Blood?”
“Uh, that’s a good question. I like what you said bout the idea of washing away… It’s the idea of applying blood… turning water into blood and blood into water… being alive… We need water, but water doesn’t need us… the colour white… something for me to think about. Thankyou.”
“Body?”
“… went to art school… found myself using my physical self… I fell into it naturally just through the nature of my personality… the vehicle of the body…”
“… materials talk to you?”
“Yeah, uh… You’ll see sculptural works or installation works… I have a tendency to keep things pretty clean… sculptures or objects that are much more pared down… less messy… harness the material in some way… red cedar log… looks beautiful to me… y’know if you make it too beautiful then it sucks… I want to say something about how we are as human beings… have some purpose…”
“…Images where you’re constrained… always fighting something?”
“I think it’s a human condition… restraining myself… people will feel the struggle… I like that, setting up a difficult situation for myself… that’s just why I need to do it in front of people…”
[She’s fuckin awesome!]
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Kretschmar took a big bite outta my soul today. Why? Just because she could. She felt that I had questioned her authority one too many times in the past week. She needed to take me down a notch. It happened during a BOARD meeting. I was doing a presentation that someone had actually requested.
"If anything, these two definitions illustrate how difficult it is to give non-circular, non-contradictory descriptions of both the conscious and unconscious minds. Indeed, at the end of his definition of consciousness Sutherland proclaims that nothing worth reading has been written on consciousness (we can only assume that he meant to include his own definition in this set, and it would seem that he would be correct in doing so). Sutherland even acknowledges that it is impossible to specify what consciousness is, what it does, or why it evolved.”
This is when Kretschmar pipes up, “What can you tell us, Dr. X, about consciousness from your own personal perspective?”
And I thought, what de fuck is dis about? So I jus carried on wid my presentation.
“In addition to housing the superego, the unconscious holds ‘all the material that a person cannot bring to consciousness because it has been repressed’. Assuming that this definition is indicative of a general psychoanalytic approach to consciousness, then a number of questions might be raised regarding such a description of the mind. How exactly does material come to be repressed?”
Everyone seemed to be enjoyin demselves, even Ellenberger was fascinated, interrupting me to state, “The assumption that a part of psychic life escapes man’s conscious knowledge has been held for many centuries. In the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries, it attracted more attention; in the nineteenth, as one of the most highly debated problems, it became finally one of the cornerstones of modern dynamic psychiatry.”
An’den good ol’Kretschy went off again.
“What we want to know, Dr. X, is what consciousness is like from your first person perspective.”
And again, I thought, what de fuck?! Why is’he bringin dis up in a fuckin BOARD meetin? Seems like she’s tryin to humiliate me from her own personal perspective. So, I brought out my Heidegger.
“Essentially, Dasein is a being for whom Being is an issue. This issue becomes lost in the shuffle of its average-everday life. In order to live an authentic life Dasein must own up to its existence. A Dasein that is fully immersed in the They has no idea that anything is wrong. The moment before death (when Dasein alone, is inescapably confronted with the finiteness of its own Being and the groundlessness of its existence) might bring about a sudden revelation of mineness that will expose the veil of inauthenticity. The inauthentic Dasein will come to the realization that all actions and decisions up to that point were made in relation to a They that is really no one at all. This Dasein will experience a few seconds of anguish and then its entire existence will be over. Where the real trouble lies is with the capacitated, full-life-ahead-of-it Dasein that somehow catches a brief glimpse of the veil or becomes fully aware of the veil of the They (perhaps during a mid-life crisis, or through reading Being and Time). This Dasein is then cursed with the difficult task of establishing an authentic existence in the face of the They. Once the veil is revealed Dasein is faced with the conscious choice of living behind it. The real sin lies not in losing the Self (for that is inevitable) but in the choosing of an inauthentic life over an authentic one.”
A slight murmur came up from the audience. And den Kretschmar was shakin her head at me. She attacked again.
“We know all about what you’ve written on the subject of Heidegger’s Being and Time, Dr. X. But what can you tell us about how you feel?”
And I wanted to burn holes into her eyes. I wanted to stab her heart, rip it open. I remember saying, “Well, I can tell you dat I ain’t no fuckin tool,” right before I was shut down.
"If anything, these two definitions illustrate how difficult it is to give non-circular, non-contradictory descriptions of both the conscious and unconscious minds. Indeed, at the end of his definition of consciousness Sutherland proclaims that nothing worth reading has been written on consciousness (we can only assume that he meant to include his own definition in this set, and it would seem that he would be correct in doing so). Sutherland even acknowledges that it is impossible to specify what consciousness is, what it does, or why it evolved.”
This is when Kretschmar pipes up, “What can you tell us, Dr. X, about consciousness from your own personal perspective?”
And I thought, what de fuck is dis about? So I jus carried on wid my presentation.
“In addition to housing the superego, the unconscious holds ‘all the material that a person cannot bring to consciousness because it has been repressed’. Assuming that this definition is indicative of a general psychoanalytic approach to consciousness, then a number of questions might be raised regarding such a description of the mind. How exactly does material come to be repressed?”
Everyone seemed to be enjoyin demselves, even Ellenberger was fascinated, interrupting me to state, “The assumption that a part of psychic life escapes man’s conscious knowledge has been held for many centuries. In the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries, it attracted more attention; in the nineteenth, as one of the most highly debated problems, it became finally one of the cornerstones of modern dynamic psychiatry.”
An’den good ol’Kretschy went off again.
“What we want to know, Dr. X, is what consciousness is like from your first person perspective.”
And again, I thought, what de fuck?! Why is’he bringin dis up in a fuckin BOARD meetin? Seems like she’s tryin to humiliate me from her own personal perspective. So, I brought out my Heidegger.
“Essentially, Dasein is a being for whom Being is an issue. This issue becomes lost in the shuffle of its average-everday life. In order to live an authentic life Dasein must own up to its existence. A Dasein that is fully immersed in the They has no idea that anything is wrong. The moment before death (when Dasein alone, is inescapably confronted with the finiteness of its own Being and the groundlessness of its existence) might bring about a sudden revelation of mineness that will expose the veil of inauthenticity. The inauthentic Dasein will come to the realization that all actions and decisions up to that point were made in relation to a They that is really no one at all. This Dasein will experience a few seconds of anguish and then its entire existence will be over. Where the real trouble lies is with the capacitated, full-life-ahead-of-it Dasein that somehow catches a brief glimpse of the veil or becomes fully aware of the veil of the They (perhaps during a mid-life crisis, or through reading Being and Time). This Dasein is then cursed with the difficult task of establishing an authentic existence in the face of the They. Once the veil is revealed Dasein is faced with the conscious choice of living behind it. The real sin lies not in losing the Self (for that is inevitable) but in the choosing of an inauthentic life over an authentic one.”
A slight murmur came up from the audience. And den Kretschmar was shakin her head at me. She attacked again.
“We know all about what you’ve written on the subject of Heidegger’s Being and Time, Dr. X. But what can you tell us about how you feel?”
And I wanted to burn holes into her eyes. I wanted to stab her heart, rip it open. I remember saying, “Well, I can tell you dat I ain’t no fuckin tool,” right before I was shut down.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
The term human agency, or agency, recognizes the important fact that juveniles not only are acted upon by social influence and structural constraints, but also make choices and decisions based on the alternatives that they see before them. A longitudinal study on adolescent health (eating disorders, depression, substance abuse) in middle and secondary school boys and girls... A study evaluating prevention programs for adolescent females with body image concerns... school-based study of male adolescent mental health: depression, substance abuse, and eating disorders...
Perhaps it is public language that is responsible for a complex of rather distinctive features of human thought. Reflexive thinking will paradigmatically involve a direct and conscious cognitive access to target thoughts. Public language sentences are the only possible vehicles for thoughts that are to be the objects of reflexive thinking.
Should I help out wid’is’tudy?
Matthias Mehl:
“We are interested in how natural language in everyday conversation -”
“Exactly, but I like this... You couldn’t say that I’m shy... [laughing].”
“I went to a newsgroup last year... She’s a psychic... Judy, in my group, she’s so unhappy... But... You just take these trips...”
“Hmmm...”
“New York... The divorce hadn’t gone through, yet... And then they broke up... One day...”
“So, it could be the last day... I wrote everything... I... I... I... Friends.”
I believe I might be rather good at this task. ha ha ha.
“- conveys psychological information about a person. Using new behaviour/language sampling technology -”
Lord knows we can use more of that. ha ha ha.
“ - for FIELD research, we are going to reconstruct a person’s linguistic fingerprint from his or her daily interactions and relate it to a variety of self-reported personality characteristics, situational variables and physiological markers (e.g. blood pressure, cortisol, testosterone).”
Lying. They’re talking about liars. ha ha ha. Now if only I had the choice regarding whether or not I wanted to work on dis’tudy. ha ahha ha.
Perhaps it is public language that is responsible for a complex of rather distinctive features of human thought. Reflexive thinking will paradigmatically involve a direct and conscious cognitive access to target thoughts. Public language sentences are the only possible vehicles for thoughts that are to be the objects of reflexive thinking.
Should I help out wid’is’tudy?
Matthias Mehl:
“We are interested in how natural language in everyday conversation -”
“Exactly, but I like this... You couldn’t say that I’m shy... [laughing].”
“I went to a newsgroup last year... She’s a psychic... Judy, in my group, she’s so unhappy... But... You just take these trips...”
“Hmmm...”
“New York... The divorce hadn’t gone through, yet... And then they broke up... One day...”
“So, it could be the last day... I wrote everything... I... I... I... Friends.”
I believe I might be rather good at this task. ha ha ha.
“- conveys psychological information about a person. Using new behaviour/language sampling technology -”
Lord knows we can use more of that. ha ha ha.
“ - for FIELD research, we are going to reconstruct a person’s linguistic fingerprint from his or her daily interactions and relate it to a variety of self-reported personality characteristics, situational variables and physiological markers (e.g. blood pressure, cortisol, testosterone).”
Lying. They’re talking about liars. ha ha ha. Now if only I had the choice regarding whether or not I wanted to work on dis’tudy. ha ahha ha.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I’ve been a little despondent with everyone else except for um, yeah, everyone. FU man. What, what universe did i attend? it’s called FU, what’s yours? That’s why you ain’t got a date. I should be talking to her navel, saying you need not worry bout fallowing out there. to be completed at a later date.
on a friday night everything all right, checking your jacknife if i had never gotten the train the code the trauma in the head. lateral head trauma coma. I dunno if I should hold off that long, though, I gotta hear a song, don’t you know? that you are a shooting star. c’mon play, you SOB, you jus gotta learn to play with the right people, y’know. start from the top and make your way down. jus like Alice in Wonderland.... That really worries me. in a car her grandfather again. fractals connected. fibraccio. libarace. Maro is part of the extremely closed circuit.
Maro is a telekinetic photomachine. The ultimate gadget. Can take still photos, can shoot moving images. Maro can send notes to other similar gadgets across time and space. She used to eat lettuce, but not so much anymore. I dunno... You can’t trust her, ever, not even for one cool minute. You gotta remember that. You gotta keep that fear in your heart. The terrible thing is that she wants you to have that fear there. It should be about respect. That’s what you’d think it would be about, but it’s not. It’s all about fear and the kind of control that she has over you. She needs to have that control, no matter what situation she’s in. KRETSCHMAR. She’s probably listening to this right now.
She has her minions. And you have to watch out for them at all times.
I once looked up to her. I almost admired her. Almost. I thought she had something like compassion. But I was dead wrong. It’s not compassion afterall. It’s jus’elf preservation, a sickening, destructive kind of self-preservation. She’s only nice to you as an after-thought, or perhaps she actually needs something from you, though she would never want you to know it. She will demand things from you. That’s all. She will never admit to actually needing you.
If I can get through that on a regular basis, then I think that I can get through just about anything. I would much rather be physically beaten than have the piss kicked outta my soul.
on a friday night everything all right, checking your jacknife if i had never gotten the train the code the trauma in the head. lateral head trauma coma. I dunno if I should hold off that long, though, I gotta hear a song, don’t you know? that you are a shooting star. c’mon play, you SOB, you jus gotta learn to play with the right people, y’know. start from the top and make your way down. jus like Alice in Wonderland.... That really worries me. in a car her grandfather again. fractals connected. fibraccio. libarace. Maro is part of the extremely closed circuit.
Maro is a telekinetic photomachine. The ultimate gadget. Can take still photos, can shoot moving images. Maro can send notes to other similar gadgets across time and space. She used to eat lettuce, but not so much anymore. I dunno... You can’t trust her, ever, not even for one cool minute. You gotta remember that. You gotta keep that fear in your heart. The terrible thing is that she wants you to have that fear there. It should be about respect. That’s what you’d think it would be about, but it’s not. It’s all about fear and the kind of control that she has over you. She needs to have that control, no matter what situation she’s in. KRETSCHMAR. She’s probably listening to this right now.
She has her minions. And you have to watch out for them at all times.
I once looked up to her. I almost admired her. Almost. I thought she had something like compassion. But I was dead wrong. It’s not compassion afterall. It’s jus’elf preservation, a sickening, destructive kind of self-preservation. She’s only nice to you as an after-thought, or perhaps she actually needs something from you, though she would never want you to know it. She will demand things from you. That’s all. She will never admit to actually needing you.
If I can get through that on a regular basis, then I think that I can get through just about anything. I would much rather be physically beaten than have the piss kicked outta my soul.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Here’s de new form for admittance dey asked me for.
PATIENT:
PHOTO:
TREATMENT RECORD:
ANOMALIES:
RADIOGRAPHIC FINDINGS:
ADDITIONAL FINDINGS
DETAIL:
PERCUSSION SENSITIVE:
ABNORMAL WEAR:
DETAIL:
SUMMARY OF DIAGNOSIS:
TREATMENT PLAN IN SEQUENCE:
PROGNOSIS:
Canadian Mental Health Association
Canadian Life and Health Insurance Association Inc.
Standard Mental Health Claim Form
PART 1 Doctor Unique No. SPEC.
Patient’s Office Account No.
I HEREBY ASSIGN MY BENEFITS PAYABLE FROM THIS CLAIM TO THE NAMED DOCTORS AND AUTHORIZE PAYMENT DIRECTLY TO HIM/HER. Please Remit Payment to (Signature on File)
______________________________________________________________
SIGNATURE OF SUBSCRIBER
FOR DOCTORS USE ONLY - FOR ADDITIONAL INFORMATION, DIAGNOSIS, PRECEDURES, OR SPECIAL CONSIDERATIONS
I UNDERSTAND THAT THE FEES LISTED IN THIS CLAIM MAY NOT BE COVERED BY OR MAY EXCEED MY PLAN BENEFITS. I UNDERSTAND THAT I AM FINANCIALLY RESPONSIBLE TO MY DOCTOR FOR THE ENTIRE TREATMENT. I ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THE TOTAL FEE IS ACCURATE AND HAS BEEN CHARGED TO ME FOR SERVICES RENDERED. I AUTHORIZE RELEASE OF THE INFORMATION CONTAINED IN THIS CLAIM FORM TO MY INSURING COMPANY/PLAN ADMINISTRATOR. I ALSO AUTHORIZE THE COMMUNICATION OF INFORMATION RELATED TO THE COVERAGE OF SERVICES DESCRIBED IN THIS FORM TO THE NAMED DOCTOR.
___________________________________________________________
SIGNATURE OF PATIENT (PARENT/GUARDIAN)
OFFICE VERIFICATION
I know dat it ain too excitin, but i’s got all de necessary fields.
Seat patient in consult room with doctor. What is your primary concern?
Like it ever fuckin happens dat way. Der’s no fuckin time.
“It is likewise to reduce real time to abstract physical time, to the essentially quantitative time which is that of the objectivity of mundane calendars from which the signs that gave a sacred qualification to every present have disappeared.”
More Henry Corbin, not like it’s ever gonna do me any good. I’m not even allowed to be concerned with the difference between what’s alive and what isn’t.
What can we do for you today?
COMMON USES: This medicine is a benzodiazepine used to relieve anxiety and cause drowsiness before certain medical procedures. It may also be used to treat other conditions as determined by your doctor.
ADDITIONAL MONITORING OF YOUR DOSE OR CONDITION may be needed if you are taking metformin, probenecid, or blood thinners (such as warfarin). THIS MEDICINE MAY AFFECT CERTAIN LAB TEST RESULTS. Make sure laboratory personnel and your doctors know you use this medicine. When the room fills what will that be like?
Furthermore, I have all dese other assignments dat Kretschmar’s asked me to complete. Assist with one or more studies exploring language development. How infants identify the sound patterns of their native languages; how toddlers learn word meanings; interactions between language and conceptual development in two-four year-olds. Coding recorded data.
What is it to have successful communication? True beliefs are essential to interpretation, though there’s always some possibility of error. Successful communication entails mainly true beliefs are being held by both communicators. You have to assume that a believer holds true beliefs in order to allow for communication at all. This is Davidson’s Principle of Charity. It seems to take us back to a notion of similarity. Davidson says that if knowing one’s thoughts depends on external factors (for individuation) then thoughts would be altered according to environment.
I bin readin Carey’s posts lately. She seems pretty angry, though she refuses to engage in any sort of communication with me. Can’t really blame her for dat, I s’pose.
Do people pay attention to me at all? Similar changes in the expression of anxiety also occur. In the beginning of therapy, anxiety may be diffuse.The patient may be generally withdrawn and frightened, tense and garrulous, or over-anxious about being clean, neat, orderly. Reminds me of someone trying to eat soap. Who was dat, Maro?
Maybe if I changed her environment or something.
Before we left the fire to go in we had to study the sky: the weather, the stars.
PATIENT:
PHOTO:
TREATMENT RECORD:
ANOMALIES:
RADIOGRAPHIC FINDINGS:
ADDITIONAL FINDINGS
DETAIL:
PERCUSSION SENSITIVE:
ABNORMAL WEAR:
DETAIL:
SUMMARY OF DIAGNOSIS:
TREATMENT PLAN IN SEQUENCE:
PROGNOSIS:
Canadian Mental Health Association
Canadian Life and Health Insurance Association Inc.
Standard Mental Health Claim Form
PART 1 Doctor Unique No. SPEC.
Patient’s Office Account No.
I HEREBY ASSIGN MY BENEFITS PAYABLE FROM THIS CLAIM TO THE NAMED DOCTORS AND AUTHORIZE PAYMENT DIRECTLY TO HIM/HER. Please Remit Payment to (Signature on File)
______________________________________________________________
SIGNATURE OF SUBSCRIBER
FOR DOCTORS USE ONLY - FOR ADDITIONAL INFORMATION, DIAGNOSIS, PRECEDURES, OR SPECIAL CONSIDERATIONS
I UNDERSTAND THAT THE FEES LISTED IN THIS CLAIM MAY NOT BE COVERED BY OR MAY EXCEED MY PLAN BENEFITS. I UNDERSTAND THAT I AM FINANCIALLY RESPONSIBLE TO MY DOCTOR FOR THE ENTIRE TREATMENT. I ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THE TOTAL FEE IS ACCURATE AND HAS BEEN CHARGED TO ME FOR SERVICES RENDERED. I AUTHORIZE RELEASE OF THE INFORMATION CONTAINED IN THIS CLAIM FORM TO MY INSURING COMPANY/PLAN ADMINISTRATOR. I ALSO AUTHORIZE THE COMMUNICATION OF INFORMATION RELATED TO THE COVERAGE OF SERVICES DESCRIBED IN THIS FORM TO THE NAMED DOCTOR.
___________________________________________________________
SIGNATURE OF PATIENT (PARENT/GUARDIAN)
OFFICE VERIFICATION
I know dat it ain too excitin, but i’s got all de necessary fields.
Seat patient in consult room with doctor. What is your primary concern?
Like it ever fuckin happens dat way. Der’s no fuckin time.
“It is likewise to reduce real time to abstract physical time, to the essentially quantitative time which is that of the objectivity of mundane calendars from which the signs that gave a sacred qualification to every present have disappeared.”
More Henry Corbin, not like it’s ever gonna do me any good. I’m not even allowed to be concerned with the difference between what’s alive and what isn’t.
What can we do for you today?
COMMON USES: This medicine is a benzodiazepine used to relieve anxiety and cause drowsiness before certain medical procedures. It may also be used to treat other conditions as determined by your doctor.
ADDITIONAL MONITORING OF YOUR DOSE OR CONDITION may be needed if you are taking metformin, probenecid, or blood thinners (such as warfarin). THIS MEDICINE MAY AFFECT CERTAIN LAB TEST RESULTS. Make sure laboratory personnel and your doctors know you use this medicine. When the room fills what will that be like?
Furthermore, I have all dese other assignments dat Kretschmar’s asked me to complete. Assist with one or more studies exploring language development. How infants identify the sound patterns of their native languages; how toddlers learn word meanings; interactions between language and conceptual development in two-four year-olds. Coding recorded data.
What is it to have successful communication? True beliefs are essential to interpretation, though there’s always some possibility of error. Successful communication entails mainly true beliefs are being held by both communicators. You have to assume that a believer holds true beliefs in order to allow for communication at all. This is Davidson’s Principle of Charity. It seems to take us back to a notion of similarity. Davidson says that if knowing one’s thoughts depends on external factors (for individuation) then thoughts would be altered according to environment.
I bin readin Carey’s posts lately. She seems pretty angry, though she refuses to engage in any sort of communication with me. Can’t really blame her for dat, I s’pose.
Do people pay attention to me at all? Similar changes in the expression of anxiety also occur. In the beginning of therapy, anxiety may be diffuse.The patient may be generally withdrawn and frightened, tense and garrulous, or over-anxious about being clean, neat, orderly. Reminds me of someone trying to eat soap. Who was dat, Maro?
Maybe if I changed her environment or something.
Before we left the fire to go in we had to study the sky: the weather, the stars.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Der’s gonna be trouble in JMac’s session today, I know it. Maro, look what he turned in to Jo: Ill Communication
These days, everyone is up in arms over decisions made by the CRTC regarding Canadian content. However, there is a much larger issue at stake here, namely access to the very infrastructures over which Canadian content is transmitted. Generally, people seem to feel that more competition can only be a good thing for the Canadian consumer. According to major telecommunications companies like Telus, opening up the Canadian marketplace will result in better services at lower rates. However, it’s likely that the average Canadian consumer will end up paying more for a basic level of service.
The former monopoly telecommunications companies no longer have an interest in maintaining a basic level of service for individual consumers. When these companies compete for marketshare in a particular location, they do so by offering an initially low rate that does not last for the duration of the contract that a consumer must sign in order to receive service. This is bad enough in cities that can support a variety of options for telecommunications services. The consumer must be vigilant and read the fine print whenever a contract is signed, all the while remaining aware of the fact that the company with whom the contract is being signed will not have the consumer’s best interests at heart. In the end, a city-dweller could simply refuse to sign-up for any internet or phone connection. Living and working in a city without these services certainly isn’t fun, but it probably won’t endanger your life. When it comes to the great number of sparsely populated communities that make up Canada, it’s not safe to live and work without telecommunications. In fact, it’s pretty risky to live in isolation without immediate contact with other members of one’s community. There are many small communities in Canada that have yet to receive the capacity to serve cell phones; but this will change in May of 2008 when Canadian wireless spectrum will again be auctioned-off. These are isolated areas, where people have greater need for cell phones than those who live in cities. Originally, these areas were serviced by the former monopoly companies who ran landline telecommunications in Canada on behalf of Canadian citizens. It used to be the case that any Canadian who wanted phone service could have it by paying a fee that was in keeping with the cost of living at the time. The infrastructure of this system of telecommunication was sponsored by the Canadian government because it was in the best interest of the average, tax-paying citizen. Times have certainly changed, but for isolated communities throughout Canada telecommunications are still akin to an essential service.
It might seem as though today’s fast-paced technological developments would create potential for new modes of telecommunication, however, most of the technology being developed is already owned by the largest corporations in Canadian telecommunications. The Canadian Association of Voice Over IP Providers is a not-for-profit group formed in 2005 by voice over IP providers who felt they needed a means to lobby for their concerns with the telecommunications industry. Leslie Bester, a CAVP board member, maintains that VOIP could not exist without access to competition networks. “Somehow, someone feels that it is possible to build the same infrastructure and compete, trenching fiber, conduits and building a parallel network... It’s simply impossible.” He believes that because it is dominated by a only a few carriers “there is effectively no competition in the wireless arena in Canada”. Even if an up-and-coming new wireless company manages to do well against Canada’s big three (Bell, Rogers, and Telus), chances are that one of these corporations will buy that company out. One example of this occurrence is Fido. Somehow Microcell Connexions, Inc. was able to launch Fido in 1996. They had won a bid for wireless spectrum in the auction that took place in 1995. Yet, by 2002 Microcell was struggling. Andre Tremblay, then President and Chief Executive Officer of Microcell Telecommunications cited “the currently unfavourable market conditions in the wireless telecommunications and mobile internet sector” as the reason for discontinuing its efforts to externally market a new mobile commerce platform. This decision resulted in the elimination of 18 positions in their Montreal office, including the Chief Operating Officer of the project. By 2003, Microcell was filing for bankruptcy protection and by 2004 they had accepted an offer from Rogers Communications for $1.4-billion. Another example of this occurence is Clearnet Communications. Telus chose not to fight for wireless spectrum in the auction of 1995. Instead, they waited and watched while Clearnet Communications, another company that had won a wireless spectrum bid, slowly went under. As the year 2000 rolled in, Telus took control of Clearnet Communications for $6.6-billion. Granted, this was the largest deal in the history of Canadian telecommunications, which might have been wonderful for the people of Clearnet Communications but not so great for the Canadian consumer. At the time of the merger, Clearnet had the maximum amount of bandwidth allowed by Ottawa. Now, Telus has more wireless spectrum allocated to them than any other wireless company in Canada. And they want more.
Everyone knows dat shit was written by C. Gibson, way back at de beginnin o’de millenium, fer fuck’sake. Does JMac think we’re idiots? Maybe he’s tryin to tell us somethin. What de fuck is he doin? Plus, his evaluation is comin up. Time to find out whether he ready to mix wid real society yet. Maybe da’s why he actin up. Alright, den. Lets find JMac an do some sorta simulation, already. This issue is pertinent to nonconditioning paradigms in which awareness of experimental contingencies is measured.
“But at that point it was concluded that the crime itself could only have been committed in a state of some temporary disturbance of the mind, as it were, under the influence of some dangerous monomania...”
“If I may interrupt you for a moment, I’d like to tell you more about the awareness measure used in JMac’s, uh sorry, #060997’s case.”
“You have the floor, now, Dr. X.”
“This awareness measure is directed toward a different set of hypotheses, one other than what was originally recorded.”
“You mean you changed the scope of this particular experiment?”
“It has more to do with the subject’s knowledge of what behavioral outcome is predicted. Here, let me just show you this’imulation. I think you’ll get a better understanding of what I’m trying to explain.”
To learn more about your opportunities and career choices the Townsend College of Counsellor Training invites you to attend an Information Session on available courses and programs.
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Submit this completed assessment to reception at your earliest convenience.
1. Discuss the statement: “Everyone can benefit from counselling.”
“This is fuckin bullshit, man. Why do I gotta even think about this shit?”
“Well, JMac, I dunno what else to say to you. Want an entry level position?”
“You know what that sounds like to me, man?”
“Yeah, I know, but we gotta start you off somewhere. You gotta have goals. Whether you like it or not, you gotta have goals.”
“You mean, I gotta have gaols.”
“Wha?”
Where did’at fuckin vocabulary come from? JMac been playin a lotta Scrabulous lately or what? Or, could be dis ain JMac at all. Better turn on de Turing test. Ha ha ha.
“Listen, JMac. At least one or two members o’de panel (especially de psychologists) are gonna be askin you dese kinda questions. If you were actually to admit de possibility dat you were at fault... You need to acknowledge de part dat you play in dis whole process, JMac. For your own good.”
“Good? What does any of you mothafuckers know about good!”
His levels are shootin outta control. He’s gonna get reprimanded if he don’t watch it. Certainly SEEMS like JMac.
“I’m fuckin public property, man! They don’t care about MY good.”
“Speakin as a person who is also public property, I can tell you dat dey care very much about YOUR good. If you self-destruct, or take someone else down wid you somehow, den they’ll lose der investment. It’s as simple as dat JMac. Everyone wants you healthy. We ain’t an SB clinic.”
At least, as far as I know we ain’t.
These days, everyone is up in arms over decisions made by the CRTC regarding Canadian content. However, there is a much larger issue at stake here, namely access to the very infrastructures over which Canadian content is transmitted. Generally, people seem to feel that more competition can only be a good thing for the Canadian consumer. According to major telecommunications companies like Telus, opening up the Canadian marketplace will result in better services at lower rates. However, it’s likely that the average Canadian consumer will end up paying more for a basic level of service.
The former monopoly telecommunications companies no longer have an interest in maintaining a basic level of service for individual consumers. When these companies compete for marketshare in a particular location, they do so by offering an initially low rate that does not last for the duration of the contract that a consumer must sign in order to receive service. This is bad enough in cities that can support a variety of options for telecommunications services. The consumer must be vigilant and read the fine print whenever a contract is signed, all the while remaining aware of the fact that the company with whom the contract is being signed will not have the consumer’s best interests at heart. In the end, a city-dweller could simply refuse to sign-up for any internet or phone connection. Living and working in a city without these services certainly isn’t fun, but it probably won’t endanger your life. When it comes to the great number of sparsely populated communities that make up Canada, it’s not safe to live and work without telecommunications. In fact, it’s pretty risky to live in isolation without immediate contact with other members of one’s community. There are many small communities in Canada that have yet to receive the capacity to serve cell phones; but this will change in May of 2008 when Canadian wireless spectrum will again be auctioned-off. These are isolated areas, where people have greater need for cell phones than those who live in cities. Originally, these areas were serviced by the former monopoly companies who ran landline telecommunications in Canada on behalf of Canadian citizens. It used to be the case that any Canadian who wanted phone service could have it by paying a fee that was in keeping with the cost of living at the time. The infrastructure of this system of telecommunication was sponsored by the Canadian government because it was in the best interest of the average, tax-paying citizen. Times have certainly changed, but for isolated communities throughout Canada telecommunications are still akin to an essential service.
It might seem as though today’s fast-paced technological developments would create potential for new modes of telecommunication, however, most of the technology being developed is already owned by the largest corporations in Canadian telecommunications. The Canadian Association of Voice Over IP Providers is a not-for-profit group formed in 2005 by voice over IP providers who felt they needed a means to lobby for their concerns with the telecommunications industry. Leslie Bester, a CAVP board member, maintains that VOIP could not exist without access to competition networks. “Somehow, someone feels that it is possible to build the same infrastructure and compete, trenching fiber, conduits and building a parallel network... It’s simply impossible.” He believes that because it is dominated by a only a few carriers “there is effectively no competition in the wireless arena in Canada”. Even if an up-and-coming new wireless company manages to do well against Canada’s big three (Bell, Rogers, and Telus), chances are that one of these corporations will buy that company out. One example of this occurrence is Fido. Somehow Microcell Connexions, Inc. was able to launch Fido in 1996. They had won a bid for wireless spectrum in the auction that took place in 1995. Yet, by 2002 Microcell was struggling. Andre Tremblay, then President and Chief Executive Officer of Microcell Telecommunications cited “the currently unfavourable market conditions in the wireless telecommunications and mobile internet sector” as the reason for discontinuing its efforts to externally market a new mobile commerce platform. This decision resulted in the elimination of 18 positions in their Montreal office, including the Chief Operating Officer of the project. By 2003, Microcell was filing for bankruptcy protection and by 2004 they had accepted an offer from Rogers Communications for $1.4-billion. Another example of this occurence is Clearnet Communications. Telus chose not to fight for wireless spectrum in the auction of 1995. Instead, they waited and watched while Clearnet Communications, another company that had won a wireless spectrum bid, slowly went under. As the year 2000 rolled in, Telus took control of Clearnet Communications for $6.6-billion. Granted, this was the largest deal in the history of Canadian telecommunications, which might have been wonderful for the people of Clearnet Communications but not so great for the Canadian consumer. At the time of the merger, Clearnet had the maximum amount of bandwidth allowed by Ottawa. Now, Telus has more wireless spectrum allocated to them than any other wireless company in Canada. And they want more.
Everyone knows dat shit was written by C. Gibson, way back at de beginnin o’de millenium, fer fuck’sake. Does JMac think we’re idiots? Maybe he’s tryin to tell us somethin. What de fuck is he doin? Plus, his evaluation is comin up. Time to find out whether he ready to mix wid real society yet. Maybe da’s why he actin up. Alright, den. Lets find JMac an do some sorta simulation, already. This issue is pertinent to nonconditioning paradigms in which awareness of experimental contingencies is measured.
“But at that point it was concluded that the crime itself could only have been committed in a state of some temporary disturbance of the mind, as it were, under the influence of some dangerous monomania...”
“If I may interrupt you for a moment, I’d like to tell you more about the awareness measure used in JMac’s, uh sorry, #060997’s case.”
“You have the floor, now, Dr. X.”
“This awareness measure is directed toward a different set of hypotheses, one other than what was originally recorded.”
“You mean you changed the scope of this particular experiment?”
“It has more to do with the subject’s knowledge of what behavioral outcome is predicted. Here, let me just show you this’imulation. I think you’ll get a better understanding of what I’m trying to explain.”
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“This is fuckin bullshit, man. Why do I gotta even think about this shit?”
“Well, JMac, I dunno what else to say to you. Want an entry level position?”
“You know what that sounds like to me, man?”
“Yeah, I know, but we gotta start you off somewhere. You gotta have goals. Whether you like it or not, you gotta have goals.”
“You mean, I gotta have gaols.”
“Wha?”
Where did’at fuckin vocabulary come from? JMac been playin a lotta Scrabulous lately or what? Or, could be dis ain JMac at all. Better turn on de Turing test. Ha ha ha.
“Listen, JMac. At least one or two members o’de panel (especially de psychologists) are gonna be askin you dese kinda questions. If you were actually to admit de possibility dat you were at fault... You need to acknowledge de part dat you play in dis whole process, JMac. For your own good.”
“Good? What does any of you mothafuckers know about good!”
His levels are shootin outta control. He’s gonna get reprimanded if he don’t watch it. Certainly SEEMS like JMac.
“I’m fuckin public property, man! They don’t care about MY good.”
“Speakin as a person who is also public property, I can tell you dat dey care very much about YOUR good. If you self-destruct, or take someone else down wid you somehow, den they’ll lose der investment. It’s as simple as dat JMac. Everyone wants you healthy. We ain’t an SB clinic.”
At least, as far as I know we ain’t.
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