Sunday, February 25, 2007

“Support the objectives of the institution… if that can’t be done then the institution will not thrive… the office does all that… look at the technologies being offered to us.”
Some slides are projected up in front of us in order to prove a point: commercialization activities. "What technologies are commercializable… downtown incubator… Angel Network of Investors…” Showin der wares.
“The economics of this city… based on international…”
-26 invention disclosures
-16 new patent applications filled
-3 new patents issued
The bottom line: $10.7 million in revenues generated.

Gung Chen, Senior Advisor, clears his throat, “…thanks to Steven for clearing up the matter. Yes, the motion has been submitted in time – with great help from Steven and Mavis. The motion was not withdrawn from the agenda. Nonetheless, Titus’ report is wonderful, I’m glad there has been such a boost in energy and commitment amongst the elected reps. Together we can all make a difference.”

Thursday, February 15, 2007

CLAP
“In 1850... small light parade tied in with a religious ceremony... December 8th, entire lighting of the city... Light installation on river... warming centre... Water fire: one of the most intimate, emotional experiences... Pulled asphalt up in the nineties...”
Hey, I’m remembering somethin, Chicago durin the 1830s they had need of a vast variety o’buildins. Dese were boom times in d’ol Northwest. In 1830 the population o’Chicago numbered 100, by the’nd o’dat decade it was more dan 4000. Of all Van Osdel’s buildins o’dis period, none is more significant’han d’emperor of early Chicago hostelries, de Tremont House, which’e constructed in 1850 on de southeast corner o’Lake an Dearborn streets. January 1851, “It is one of the chief ornaments of the city...” In de Tremont’s public rooms d’early Chambers o’Commerce met, business was transacted in its lobby. It was a city where, in de 1840s and 50s a ‘grocery’ meant an establishment’hat sold liquor as well as foodstuffs, and many o’dem’anaged to find room for a roulette wheel as well. The Mecca, built on de South Side at State an 34th streets in 1891, was de result o’de collaboration o’Daniel Burnham an George Edbrooke, a leadin warehouse an store designer.
Outta nowhere, a propos de nothin de man’ext’o me sits up straight, opens his eyes wide and says in a whisper, “I like her. She woke me up.”
“I noticed.”
“... very large to very tiny scale... park well-loved and so well-used.”
More technical difficulties.
“... How people use space... that matters... gather, sit, celebrate...”
A brilliant solution to the problem o’public space, wid Chicago’s harsh winters.
“... Tear down brick buildings, urban renewal... starts growing and can’t stop it... Even very tiny little triangle... cities grow around it... Waterfront and riverfront, rejuvenation... Wilderness coming through the city...”
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“... meander of the river... little neighbourhoods stuck in the middle, very tiny pieces... small interventions, a lot of volunteer labour... sometimes plants are donated... celebrating leadership and agriculture of the land... people thought... nice vacant land... lets see... make a park... put together all of the pieces, all abandoned railroad tracks, native landscapes disappearing... about the people, set aside for use of public park and nothing else... ”
There seems to be a lotta hope in de room right now.
“... ended up... transformed into what it is today... as much economic impact... institution... Why this study? Public process, challenge people to think about cultural and park experience, people value both... magic is in finding a balance... All these needs, infrastructure is shaping park instead of cultural institutions shaping infrastructure... What do people value? From different point of view... Small interventions... Shuttles, promote health of cultural institutions...”
Suddenly the van changed its course and I saw the towers in the distance, blue and half hidden in the smoke. At once my ideas changed.
“... transit... 300 million, so costs are distributed as well as benefits... that is probably the last slide... going to take some commitment and a lot of time... but I just wanted to show you something good. Thankyou.”
Finally. No’ffense to the speakers, o’course.
Oh, looks like I got London’line again. Here goes nothin.

“The abilities to attribute an action to its proper agent and to understand its meaning when it is produced by someone else are basic aspects of human social communication.”

Dese people don even know’hat de fuck dey talkin bout. Like, no’ne’ven knows what meaning is or how it even works. What de fuck. I mean, like, no wonder fuckin schizophrenics have a “dysfunction of the awareness of one’s own action as well as of recognition of actions performed by others”. In my mind dis takes us right back to fuckin Descartes, but dese guys probly never read’im. Dey too fuckin clinical. I’m gonna hafta learn’em.

The COGITO
The proposition, “I am, I exist” is necessarily true whenever it is put forward by me or conceived in my mind.
This version concerns a principle about thinking.


The Proto-COGITO

Whenever I am thinking, I am certain that I exist.
I think, therefore I am.
This version contains an inference.

I am doubting.

Doubting is thinking.

If I am thinking, then I must exist.

Therefore, I exist.

The cogito principle doesn’t deduce existence from thought via a syllogism, rather it is self-evident. ‘I am, I exist’, is a pre-reflective awareness built into thought.
We don’t need to reflect to know what thought is. It is an immediate awareness, evidence that one cannot doubt. The fact of consciousness cannot be doubted. Existence of the self becomes indubitable through the cogito. This helps Descartes to understand his own nature as a thinking thing. The cogito entails doubt, understanding, willing, etc.

“Such syndromes offer a framework for studying the determinants of agency, the ability to correctly attribute actions to their veridical source.”

Ahh, so da’s not good enough for dem, is it. Gonna hafta dig up somethin else.
He seems to wish to maintain that language is necessary for any type of thought to occur and that all thoughts will conform to some pattern of belief.
Dat oughtta do somethin good. Ha ha.

“A fundamental problem is raised by the mechanism of how one becomes aware of one’s own actions, and how one’s actions are distinguished from those of other people.”

Hmmm. I guess in some ways dey sorta’gree wid me. I’s jus’that’hey don’t agree bout’he solution. Hmm. Le’see what else we got here for dem. Dis includes consciousness itself (i.e., consciousness o’bein conscious and consciousness o’reality). What about Libet’s Timing of Conscious Experience (Consciousness and Cognition, Vol. 9, #1)?
“This would produce a lag in conscious awareness of the real world by up to about 500ms.” (p. 4)

“This mechanism is critical for a number of reasons.”

“We realized that there was a distinctive difference between cortical responses to a cortical stimulus and the cortical responses to a skin stimulus. The latter generated a fast primary evoked potential at the somatosensory cortex.” (p. 5)

“First, the ability to make a distinction between the acting self and the acting other is one way by which the self feels distinct from other individuals and self-consciousness built.”

What a fuct-up sentence that was. Glad I didn write it. I think they don understand at all what I’m gettin at.
According to Bermudez, psychological explanations are appropriate in cases where the representation of information will affect the way in which an animal behaves. In such cases, it appears that the most likely explanation for a behaviour is that it was a response to the particular beliefs and desires of the animal in question. If it is necessary to attribute a notion of rationality to a person in order to make sense of his/her actions, then we can see how it would be just as important to apply such a notion to any creature that has beliefs and desires.
I’m not sure da’s what I’m tryin to get at. But it was worth puttin out’here anyway.

“Second, the ability to recognise the meaning of an action when it is produced by someone else and to attribute it to its proper agent is a basic function underlying human social communication.”

Oh, man, der’s’o many fuckin problems wid’at I don’t even know’here to begin. But I got de feelin dey ain gonna care bout’his at all.
He assumes that organisms with the capacity to consider actions, learn concepts, and integrate perceptions will require an internal system of representation.

“Research on these points has been undertaken within several different frameworks. The study of mental and cognitive development is one of those. Researchers in this FIELD have set the stage for a renewal of developmental studies, by demonstrating the appearance, in early childhood, of a special ability of the individual to attribute to others mental states differing from his/her own, and to infer the content of these mental states from his/her own mental content (the so-called ‘theory of mind,’ Leslie, 1987).”

Oh, man. I can’t believe dey gettin’ to dat shit. GAWD.
Evidently, there are many problems inherent to establishing a connection between thought and language.

“The ability to imitate and to learn by observation is another critical developmental function, which might relate to the same basic mechanism (Meltzoff, 1995).”

Ok. Dat much I can agree wid.

“This highly influential research has recently merged with other work in normal adult subjects, aimed at determining the neural mechanisms of mental representations, particularly in the context of action generation.”

So, now’e back to Libet again, eh?
“The whole thrust of our experiments and conclusions was that the timing of a sensation is subjectively referred to the early signal given by the primary evoked potential, not that the conscious sensation itself jumped backwards in time.” (p. 7)
What I’m tryin to get at wid’is Libet stuff here is dat we don even know’hat d’hell is goin on wid fuckin skin pricks when it comes to consciousness. And’at’s really fuckin old research. So how de fuck are we gonna get’o the fuckin consciousness of ACTIONS?! But o’course I can’t fuckin say dat.
“In other words, it is the content of the subjective experience, of the neuronally delayed awareness, that is modified by referral to the earlier timing signal.”
Yeah, fuckin right.

“The notions of internal models and internal simulation borrowed from computational neuroscience (see Wolpert et al., 1995) have now become a conceptual tool for studying the early stages of action generation, such as intending, for example.”

Oh my gawd. I’m never gonna get through to these fuckin people.
Isn’t thought supposed to depend upon some form of interpretation, some instance of language-use?

“Experiments using brain mapping techniques have shown that merely observing an action performed by someone else is no less a powerful way of eliciting brain activity than other cognitive motor states, such as mentally simulating or preparing to execute that same action.”

I’m prepared to grant them that much.

“These results... raise the point of the differences and similarities of motor representations activated during these states.”

No, see, already dey taking it too far. We still don’t know shit bout motor’epresentations or any fucking “mental states”. GAWD. I’m gettin sick o’dis fuckin conversation. Plus, I got a call comin’ on another line. Fuck.

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Lately, Carey been thinkin bout some Kent fellow.

“Things between Kent and I are going really well. He and I went to Six Nations... with my brothers last week. I got... Rollercoastering... through... through... even LIKED... he got... with wife and son... to Chicago... visit because... other brother is graduating... University of Chicago. He’s going to be a doctor!! So last week the whole family, and of course Kent spent lots and lots, well too much family time together.”

Makes me think o’Spark for some reason. Cocaine intoxication and phencoyclidine (pcp) intoxication may cause a similar clinical picture, and can be distinguished from Amphetamine Intoxication by the presence of amphetamine metabolites in a urine specimen or amphetamine in plasma. Mild: anorexia and irritability, vomiting, constipation. Severe: physical/mental retardation, very irritable, squint is common, lower lip hangs loosely.
Latest chick-flick. What is the latest chick-flick? I am fumbling with a name in my mind and then I got it.
“The Bridges of Madison County.”
Long pause. Yes? No?
She bursts out laughing. I guess it was just too much for her, though I’m not really sure why at first. Is it that her friends and mine don’t mix? Maybe even the idea that I have friends at all? Maybe I should’ve suggested “Evita”. Anyway, at least she’s got a handy excuse ready for me. She says she can’t because it’s her brother’s girlfriend’s birthday on Saturday and she has to go because it’s like some sort of family thing or something.
“Yeah, I understand. Shit like that is hard to get out of. Maybe some other time.”
“Yeah, maybe some other time.”






According to Ellenberger, in Psychological Automatism, Janet identifies only two levels of consciousness: a function of synthesis and an automatic function. Unfortunately, this distinction doesn’t seem to be quite justified. Perhaps what is meant here is a distinction between voluntary functions and involuntary functions.
When’s Carey gonna get here? She late or what?
Time. We slow time down because we travel through it with our own mass. The way in which we experience time is different from the way in which it actually exists (most likely). Space-time is distorted (created) via mass. Without mass, the universe would not exist. It would be over in an instant. Mass stretches time out... functions as a continuous loop, a closed sequence of events that occurs over and over again. The map becomes as big as the world. As long as you keep looking, the map will be there.

Each user agent must clearly obtain the configuration information from a common location, if the same information is to be used to configure all user agents. However, individual users should be able to override or augment a site’s configuration. The configuration information should therefore be obtained from a designated set of locations.

Ok. I guess, well, I guess’he just ain showing up, eh, Maro? -2 min. Oh my gawd, ok, I’m gonna skip through... Italian rain gardens, a whole range o’different activities: children’s play, skateboardin... More Foucault (again),

"The drawing up of 'tables' was one of the great problems of the scientific, political and economic technology of the eighteenth century: how one was to arrange botanical and zoological gardens and construct at the same time rational classifications of living beings; how one was to observe, supervise, regularize the circulation of commodities and money and thus build up an economic table that might serve as the principle of the increase of wealth..."

Windemere Hill: tall grass meadow. How to gain access to a site. Another case of this rewiring, might result in simply not feeling attitudes that were once considered reactive. Thus, we would only experience a certain numbness where before we felt attitudes such as forgiveness, love and anger. One could simply learn to control those attitudes over which one previously had no control. Certainly, if anything, this would be living in accordance with the facts. This kind of control would have to surpass the ability to decide when one would fall in love, when one would feel anger or hurt, or pride and respect.

Hey, I just found a post from Carey. It jus got put up here today. Weird. Right now, in fact. Strange... Whispering bout an overpass. Botanical gardens, Italian community who funded a lotta this: the rain, youth, sustainability, couple of last comments.

Oh, another meeting now, eh, Maro? I’m tryin to find a place to sit myself. Looks like everyone’s jus bout here. Guess I better get myself a seat. I’m gonna try sittin beside the Cock for a change. He’s sorta surrounded by student reps here, but I see an empty seat.
“No room! No room!”

“I don see any wine, man,” I’m sayin to him.
He’s bout to say somethin to me, but a loud bout o’raucous laughter interrupts him. Someone nearby is tellin jokes.
“Then the patient says, ‘I coulda been a psychopath.’ So, I say, ‘Don’t worry. If you’re wrong, you won’t lose your head.’ Haa haaa haaa.”

Jane: “... integrated storm water drainage, all permeable surfaces, this is the last...”
Silence. Jane waits a beat, “... Opportunities for public recreation, a dream about using... a lot of good thought from the community...”

“Jane, I know I’m already in trouble... giving the opportunity, gets a little confusing... Don’t take these images literally... Cultural programming... How we use our spaces... celebrations... Urban ephemera... Everything I’m going to show you is temporary... Barcelona... From an architectural point of view... How you experience festival space... Resonating in the city... Must come from citizens... for and by citizens... Always think what makes this site specific? A few hundred fairs, programs... Just a sampling... 30 ethnic parades, markets, holiday festivals, free events but revenue keeps our department going... large public gathering. Outdoor film festival... What we do is we highlight a short created by a Chicago filmmaker. ”
Wait a second. Chicago?
“A lot of different neighborhoods... Mayor became obsessed with puppets, puppetropolis... Four or five shows every day... ‘Punch and Judy.’”
Sounds pretty GAY to me, ha ha.
“Fun... local Chicago company, Sears re-opening downtown... Four Australian actors... Created a four room home... Human puppets...”
Who, I’m feeling a little uncomfortable here. I wonder if anyone else is feeling uncomfortable. Maro, are you feeling uncomfortable? Maybe I should be taking my meds right bout now. Is this what people call a panic attack? Whoa.
“Social dance, live music... Dance instruction... Summer dance, instruction before music starts... Activity that doesn’t cause problems, y’know?”

“Every Sunday, noon to 2pm, first to act resistant... police would not beat up on senior citizens... Really wonderful event, beautiful fire festival, keeps them from burning the town down.”
Ha ha ha. Here, the known laws of physics break down in time.
“... Creating floral carpet, just looks so wonderful... Montreal: island in old waterfront, plant sculptures, not an inexpensive project, civic morale...”
CLAP
“In 1850... small light parade tied in with a religious ceremony... December 8th, entire lighting of the city... Light installation on river... warming centre... Water fire: one of the most intimate, emotional experiences... Pulled asphalt up in the nineties...”

Thursday, February 1, 2007

Hey, Maro. I’m tryin to prep for meetin wid Carey: bone lesions present at birth, failure to thrive.
-anorexia, vomiting, irritability, and intermittent fever, renal damage
What else we got on Carey?

Dear Mom,
I’m having a really good time here.
I’m writing this while I’m eating grapes on a velvet windowseat. Just looking out and watching the people.
The people here are very friendly and very kind.
I love all their villages with all their little shops.
How are things at home?
I hope everything’s going well. Yesterday Leslie and I went on a tour of the third floor. They say that the third floor is supposed to give the new things in there a true appearance. They don’t allow any plants on the third floor. They say there are frightful tools of justice on the third floor.
We had lots of fun.
Well, I guess I’d better go. Leslie’s calling me for lunch.
With love from Carey

She does cherish her own way of expressing herself, and her own way of living, her own interests an peculiarities. So what do we do? Re-work her well-developed mannerisms, interests and peculiarities until dey fit in wid everybody elses? I have no idea. Nothin seems right to me here. So Carey is now #090308.

She definitely has some sort of overanxious disorder. Here it is...

Dear Cary,
It was so nice to get your card but I can’t remember if that was the square or not, you see my Mother and I were there in June 1928.
It is beginning to look like ‘Fall’ is here The walnut trees are almost bare and the sugar maple in the front yard has the autumn red leaves and losing some. The squirrels are busy - don’t know if one was planting a walnut or digging up a tulip bulb when it was so busy in my flower bed.
The golden rod is past the flower stage and now in the seed one. Whole fields are covered with it
Mac and Shirley had a good time while they were here
It was a good thing they stayed at your home as it was very hot and my air conditioner was next to the bed they would use They had supper with us Sat. Sept. 10th We all met at your place on Sun. 11th even the baby Seirra. She looks like Eric - then Monday they went to Kleinberg - Tues to Fenwick to see Mac’s cousin Jack Bush and later after having Kentucky Fried Chicken with me - went to see your old home at Sandy Bay. Then picked up your mother and went to Port Dover for a fish dinner. Wed they went to St. Jacob’s to see the ‘old village, Shirley is very interested in a Pioneer Village project, Wed night they came to say ‘Goodby’ and left at 7am for Washington D.C. so I didn’t see much of them. I suppose by now ‘French’ is getting easy for you. In Haldimand they are putting more pupils in a class and cutting the staffs but they had to advertise for 2 French teachers. Altho its only 3pm its getting dark - another thunderstorm - we’ve had a week of mixed weather
I will close now - I loved getting your card and I do hope you will be happy with your new friends -
Much much love
Grandma



#151201 is twitchin quite a bit. She probably don like me or somethin. Maybe she’s jonzin for de solvents she so used to huffin. Ain gonna get any o’dat shit in here.
“Carey.”
She is’o damn spaced-out.
“Hey. Hey! Look at me, girl. Can you hear what I’m sayin?”
“Yeh. No. I don’t think so.”
“...”
“What. Yer kickin me out now aren’t you. I knew it. I knew it all along. You don wanna hear it... Nobody ever wants to fucking hear about it, ever. No matter what --”
“You’re wrong, Carey. I do want to hear about what you have to tell me. But I don’t want you to feel forced into anything. So, what we’re gonna do. We’re gonna schedule another appointment tomorrow at de same time, ok? I’s really important that you tell the truth --”
“I AM NOT FUCKIN LYING!!!”
“Yeah.”
“So, bit by bit, every day, we’re gonna help you to let a little bit of it go at a time. But you have to be as truthful as possible, no matter how bad or good it is. It doesn’t matter. Ok?”
“OK.”
“Alright. I’m gonna try to help you the best that I can. I’m gonna promise you that. But, you have to promise me something in return.”

“What?”
“All you gotta do is promise me dat you won’try to hurt yourself or anyone else between now an tomorrow when we meet again. Ok? Think you can do that?”
“Yeah.”
“Give me a handshake. ”
“Ok.”
She puts her sticky sweaty palm into mine an dat was dat.

She ain’t hurt anyone since, which I’m pretty glad about.
Lately, Carey been thinkin bout some Kent fellow.

“Things between Kent and I are going really well. He and I went to Six Nations... Great America with my brothers last week. I got... Rollercoastering with through... through... even LIKED... he got... with wife and son... to Chicago... visit because... other brother is graduating... University of Chicago. He’s going to be a doctor!! So last week the whole family, and of course Kent spent lots and lots, well too much family time together.”